You Can't Have Them!

Isn't it funny how life doesn't end up the way you planned?  I never, ever thought that I would be working in a church.  Well, here I am.  Then I didn't want to be working with a church youth group for only a year, because I didn't think it was fair to the youth to have to go through another big transition like that.  Again, here I am.  I didn't know how much I would grow to love, respect, and treasure my youth that I've only known for a short time.  It's way more than I would have thought.  The other day when there was discussion about who would be hired on after me, I began having these thoughts, "You can't have them!  They're mine!" {sidenote: is that how God responds to the devil who would wish we follow him? } Even before a year is complete, I'm already attached and don't particularly enjoy entertaining the thought that sometime soon, I will not be around to see them change and grow.

Transitions in life are hard, but necessary.  I face another one of those in the near future, and it both excites and intimdates me.  I'm excited for a new challenge and adventure, that I believe God has led me to pursue.  I'm intimdated because I doubt whether or not I can do it well.  Yes, I fear failure.  Actually, I probably fear too many things.  I fear that this dream of once again serving in England with OM will not become reality.  Why fear?  Well, I know, but hesitate to say, that I need to trust God more deeply.  Oh God, help my unbelief!  Let me see your greatness and respond with trust.  Amen.

Tami